It's one of those days where I feel my life is in a state of limbo. There are no major breakthroughs on the work front, and everything else is just humdrum.
Reading about the 'Four qualities of a good CEO' in the papers today makes me feel like a real slacker. If you must know, a successful CEO must have desire and energy. He must dare to make tough decisions. Having integrity is just as important. The CEO must have a dream, a mission, a strategic intent, a vision and he must be able to articulate that vision.
It looks like I'm not really cut out to be a good CEO but does it matter? I'm not hankering after fame, fortune or a big corporation to lead. But honestly, what I long for is some form of security so that I don't ever have to worry about the business.
The only way is to up the ante and bring the business to another higher level of success. But in today's economic climate? Exports are down and the maritime sector has been badly hit. Even some of the world's largest shipping lines are trying hard to stay afloat.
That's where I find the contradiction sometimes. While I long to be carefree and detach myself from the luxuries in life, I want to treat the kids to nice vacations without putting a strain on my wallet. It doesn't help that I acquired the apartment when the market was at its peak only to see the world economy crash soon after. No use crying over spilt milk. Many people are in the same boat.
So it looks like holidays will have to take a backseat for now, I know the kids will understand.