As I sit here, legs aching, downing my second cup of coffee and straining to keep my eyes open, I tell myself, It's time to change before things spiral out of control.
The bodyache is but a warning sign. I have been slacking, not just in keeping myself fit and healthy but in practically every other area of my life. I used to run several times a week, even if it meant having to squeeze in 30 minutes at the gym before dinner. Lately I have been missing these sessions. There's always an excuse close at hand.
Even my oatmeal lunch has become a rarity. It's easier to reach out for a pack of biscuits to quell a growling stomach and then down another cup of coffee to perk myself up. It's proving to be a vicious cycle.
At work, I slump before my computer from morning to dusk, waiting for enquiries to come in. This is a big departure from the past when I was so driven and motivated, I never stopped looking for more business opportunities. I would travel across the world to meet customers and suppliers in a heartbeat.
I suspect the travel bug has stopped biting me. While I used to plan my journeys with excitement, whether it is for business or leisure, I'm hardly excited to see new places these days. I've cancelled the Shanghai business trip next week because I'm supposed to be drowning in work right now.
I really should be packing and planning for the office relocation but the sense of urgency is clearly lacking here. The 'things-to-do' list is still not drawn up. There is simply no excuse for procrastination.
Maybe I'm getting complacent or my butt is getting heavy from sitting around, but whatever it is, I abhor this lack of energy. The time for change starts here!