Monday, 8 September 2008


I've been dreaming alot lately. The other night, I even had a nightmare of being tortured so badly, I was clutching my head and screaming in my dream, "I'm going mad! I'm going crazy!"

I blame it on my bed. I think it's just too roomy for me. CH thinks it could be the black chandelier hanging above my bed, like a big blob of oil threatening to burst and engulf me in a gooey mess.

Then again, I've always had fitful sleep whether it's at home, in hotels or in my little cot at my parent's home. On Sunday night, I woke up at 1am, 3am, 4am, 5am and finally 5.45am to look at my clock. Why? Because I was anxious about what I should do with Rusty in the morning. As you all know, I sent him back to the farm later that morning. As you can imagine, I felt like a zoombie all day!

With Rusty gone, I slept better last night and only got up at 1am because I kept hearing a beeping sound. I checked the dryer and found it wasn't beeping. Since I was already there, I removed the load of clothes that had already been spun dry. I must have looked like I was doing chores while sleep walking.

I tried going back to sleep and heard the sound again. This time I traced it to the cordless phone in the living room. It was running out of battery and was making a warning sound. I put it back into the charger and crawled back into bed.

Then I dreamt of a river regatta. Now, I've never been to a river regatta all my life but in my dream, the scenes were so real and alive. It was happening right at the doorstep of my old village house where we had a small and slow river but in my dream, the river was swollen and water was gushing downstream like a white water rapid.

Big and elaborately decorated wooden boats filled with warriors rowing their oars furiously were charging down the river. Some boats were filled with excited schoolgirls, others had people dressed in colourful costumes. There were even boats filled with cherubic babies with soft, blond hair. I even saw some disney characters. It was all very joyous but dangerous. I was capturing every moment with my SLR camera (I've never owned one all my life). The gushing water, exhilarated faces and carnival like atmosphere made the dream very exciting.

It's funny how I have been dreaming about my old village home lately. The little neighbourhood in the countryside where I grew up in. Last weekend, I dreamt that I was at the old market. The scenes were so vivid. I could remember all the shops and stalls. At the fishmonger's, I pointed to some squids and asked for 3 pieces. The fishmonger took one and placed in on the weighing scale. For some reason, the little squid became a giant squid that must have weighed 10kgs!

I exclaimed, "That's so huge! We can't finish eating all that. I don't want it anymore."

I woke up at 7am the next morning and went to the wet market almost right away. In case you're wondering, yes, I bought some squids. Not giant ones. Just the little ones for me and my family.
This was SK's breakfast. I thought making pancakes should be piece of cake but noooo, one was slightly undercooked while the other was burnt. I'm not talented when it comes to baking or working with batter. No time to make new ones. SK couldn't finish anyway but I don't blame him.


Anonymous said...

The river regatta sounded fun. Reminds me of my mom's home in Kedah, Malaysia. They had a river behind the house too, with boats plying the waterway daily.

Nick Phillips (15/03/1967 - 04/11/2022) said...

Just about 2 months ago I was going through the same thing you were. I had weird dreams almost every single night. And I ended up not getting enough sleep the next day. But then, one day it just disappeared and no more dreams. Some things just have no explanation ...

WaterLearner said...

You still have problem sleeping? I have problem too :-) ... Sleep for me seems to be always not enough.

But for the past two weeks, I really have been having a little problem having good sleep. Maybe it's work or stress. Or the cat of my hub's best friend that is temporarily putting up at my place. She wants attention every morning when she wakes up at about 4:30am. Then she would come meow-ing at our bedroom door or even scratching the door! She is really cute. But somehow I am glad she is going back to her owner end of this week.

Blur Ting said...

CH - The regatta in my dream was very forceful. The waves were like huge like tsunamiyet everyone looked like they were having fun. Strange. It looked scary.

Blur Ting said...

Nick - Really? Maybe something was on your mind? I wish mine would go away magically too, just like yours. I need more sleep!

Blur Ting said...

Water - Yah, I tend to fall asleep quickly but I get lots of disrupted sleep.

In your case, I believe having that cat over affects your sleep. For me, little things that are not even significant affect my sleep. Or like I know I have to get up early to go for a race or something, I would keep getting up at night.

I hope you'll get back your restful nights when the cat is gone.

WaterLearner said...


I think you put too much demands on yourself. I often marvel the things you rush through each and everyday. For work, for the boys, for you new place, even for that Rusty. ...

Maybe you should let go a bit. Allow that laundry to accumulate. Be at peace even if the house is that bit more dusty. Be gentle on yourself.

Blur Ting said...

water - I think so too... but not easy. I will try. I almost wanted to mop the floor before bedtime last night. Luckily YK switched off the lights to watch TV. How to mop in the dark right? So I went to bed.

Amel said...

Oh dear...dreaming about being tortured isn't fun at all! The other night I dreamt of losing ALL my teeth. My upper and bottom teeth suddenly just started to feel loose and I freaked out!!! GRRRRRR!!!!!

As to your question about our Sgp plan: I think there's a big chance we're going to visit Sgp, but we'll only buy tickets and all in Bandung as it'll be cheaper that way. So we don't know yet the dates and all.

If I want to meet all of you (my Sgp blogger friends), perhaps it's better for me to be there during the weekend? What do you think? I'm thinking of staying there for 4 days, but dunno yet what days.

Blur Ting said...

Hey Amel, that's a terrible nightmare! Thank goodness it was just a dream.

We can meet anytime you like when you are here, afterall you come here so rarely, we'll have time to meet you. Good idea to buy tickets only when you are in Indo. I'm sure you can get cheaper tickets. See you soon!

WaterLearner said...


Seriously .. You must learn to take it easy.


Losing one's teeth in a dream is a good sign. A sign of renewel. Growing up.

Anonymous said...

Have you tried meditation? Meditate for at least 10mins (20 or more if you can afford the time) will help to rest the mind before falling asleep. That way you can have a more restful sleep. I practice that myself and have mostly dreamless nights for years now.

Blur Ting said...

Thanks CKL. I should. Thanks for reminding me. I'll start tonight :-)

The World According To Me said...

I don't like the sound of your torture dream!

You have all my sympathy with the not sleeping lark. I go through stages when I lay in my bed, become more and more frustrated, and feeling shattered the next day. It's not much fun is it. Especially when you are worrying about something or listening to noises.
I find playing relaxing music before bed time helps, and a hot bath. Sometimes I even write a list of things I need to do the next day, to try and stop me thinking about them!

I wish you pleasant dreams and a peaceful night sleep tonight.

The Real Mother Hen said...

Disney characters?
That is a sign of more babies are coming you know! Ha :)

Oh Ting, I like your dreams, so vivid, and wild, and so fun! I wish I do dream - or at least have a good memory to remember any of them. I don't. I'm either dead when I go to bed or my memory is just not working.