These few days I feel I'm on the verge of burning out yet I cannot allow myself to unwind. Talking to best friend yesterday helped a little. Like I've always said, she's so good at managing stress, she makes me look like a maniac in comparison.
Of course it helps that she has 2 domestic maids to deal with the housework and parents to help with the kids and meals but still, she's the kind who exudes calm even under the most trying conditions.
I remember how she stood by me when my ex was fighting bitterly for custody of the kids. I almost crumbled under pressure and gave in, but she stepped in and whipped me back into shape again. I'm forever thankful for that. Growing up with her, I always thought she would make the perfect wife.
So she was dishing out sound advice again yesterday. "Maybe you can eat out once a week instead of cooking everyday?" she said. Well, she's right. I bought some cooked food on the way home yesterday evening and found myself with more time to relax at night. That's a good start.
I've come to realise that I've inherited mum's anxiety gene though I had always vehemently denied it. If I have a task to do, no matter how insignificant it is, I just cannot ignore it. In the past, I used to walk around with a to-do list but since I've aborted this habit, I keep a list in my head now. I input every new task into my little brain, the anxiety level builds up until I'm walking with a permanent frown on my forehead.
YK often tells me I get uptight over little things. After helping him with an errand yesterday, he said "You know what? You like to kick up a fuss like helping me with this errand. But see, it's not that difficult what. Then you nag, nag, nag, before, during and after the errand. You must learn to relax mah."
Well, he has a point. Why did I get so uptight over a small errand? Like the way I get so anxious over the meals and housework. Afterall, nobody really cares if the beds are unmade or Rusty's fur is all over the rug.
Chill mama! Learn to relax and unclutter your mind.