I feel tired and drained this morning. I often wonder why I wake up feeling rejuvenated on some days, other mornings are just crappy.
Luckily I wasn't planning on cooking a four course porridge breakfast this morning, I simply steamed some chee cheong fun (rice rolls) for the boys. Being the multi-tasker that I am, I also placed some Japanese sweet potatoes (for myself) and a chunk of chicken breast (for Rusty) in the steamer while I took a shower.
I tell you what's on my mind today. A vacation! I long to get away from it all and do nothing for a week or two. No washing, mopping, cooking and ironing. I want to read novels (instead of self improvement books), sunbathe, chill, swim, walk, hike and eat. I don't want to think about work and how to make more money. The boys can come along as long as they don't demand too much of my time and attention. Rusty can come only if he has learned to take care of himself.
I'm beginning to realise that I'm seriously lacking fun in my life. On my own, I can be a serious person. During the day, I work quietly in the office and back home, I get so caught up with chores that I hardly have time to relax and laugh with the kids. We live under the same roof but are always immersed in our own thoughts and activities.
I need to set aside some time for play. Recently I turned down CH's invitation to go explore the southern ridge trail with him because he didn't give enough notice. I couldn't drop everything halfway and leave. The following Sunday, he went for archery while I was buried in housework. Yesterday he asked if I could join him for dinner at a friend's house this Sunday. Well, I missed dinner at my parent's place last Sunday.... I guess you know the answer to that too.
It suddenly dawned upon me that I have not read a book from cover to cover in months (or has it been years?). Heck, I hardly have time to watch TV. When we first moved in, I thought I could sit out in the patio, sip wine and watch the stars at night. It hasn't happen yet. In my quest for the sweet life, I had forgotten about energy sapping chores and work.
And now I'm still waiting for the day to start my daily runs again. Where am I going to find the time?
I just sent CH an invite to go for coffee and cheescake during office hours. That's called skiving!